Back on track.

I was reading "Battlefield of the mind" the other night and I was in the chapter about the "wilderness mentality".  As I was reading how the Israelites gave God nothing but problems while in the wilderness, I was reminded about of the struggles I went through for the past 10 years or so.  I spent so many years feeling sorry for myself for the situations I was going through, claiming to be a Christian, but only half hazzardly doing what God wanted. 

I remember going to "Arms of Love" and offering to volunteer.  I was hoping to get something like washing laundry or something to that effect.  But they asked if I would be a counselor....unfortunately I didn't take on that responsibility and I never called them back.  Looking back, I realize that's one of the things God wanted me to do, but I was TOO AFRAID to do it.  Now I'm asking God what he wants me to do, and honestly, I'm feeling overwhelmed with some of the things.  I need to remind myself that I need to let God take care of things and let God guide and direct me in the way I should go.  I want to do the best I can to serve him....just right now I'm not sure how that way should be.