Psalm 91

Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.  This I declare of the LORD:  He alone is my refuge, my place of safety, he is my God, and I am trusting him.  For he will rescue you from every trap and protect you from the fatal plague.  He will shield you with his wings.  He will shelter you with his feathers.  His faithful promises are your armor and protection.  Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night, nor fear the dangers of the day, nor dread the plague that stalks in darkness, nor the disaster that strikes at midday.  Though a thousand fall at your side, though ten thousand are dying around you, these evils will not touch you.  But you will see it with your eyes; you will see how the wicked are punished.  If you make the LORD your refuge, if you make the Most High your shelter, no evil will conquer you; no plague will come near your dwelling.  For he orders his angels to protect you wherever you go.  They will hold you with their hands to keep you from striking your foot on a stone.  You will trample down lions and posionous snakes; you will crush fierce lions and serpents under your feet!  The LORD  says, "I will rescue those who love me.  I will protect those who trust in my name.  When they call on me, I will answer; I will be with them in trouble.  I will rescue them and honor them.  I will satisfy them with a long life and give them my salvation."

Tired of being ANXIOUS!

Lately things have just been a little too much to handle.  And it hasn't even been anything too severe.  Just my tendency to beat myself up over EVERY STUPID LITTLE THING I DO!  I find it easier to overlook other people's discrepencies, most of the time....but my own, I just cannot seem to let go.

The funny thing about all this is we just started a new church and the pastor has talked a lot about letting things go and forgiving ourselves.  It sounds awesome and for a moment  I can seem to forgive myself, but after a day or so, or even sometimes before I even walk out the church doors, I'm back to condemning myself. 

Frankly, my body and my emotions and my spirit just can't handle too much more of this.  I've been doing a lot of praying about this lately.  Hopefully soon God will show me the light on this.  He's already been working miracles in my marriage and family!  I know he can do this...I've just got to let him!